For Orion

9:08 PM.
I spent all day choking on the ghost mountains.
Finally night falls, such as it is,
like a spilled beer creeping over the sidewalk.
Above, scattered scraps of clouds orange and violet
Tie-dyed by the shine of urban cancer
Hide the higher heavens.

Here enters food and drink, lipstick and liquor.
The pre-show is over--what are the teams--
boys versus girls, cradles versus robbers,
love versus lust, lust versus manners?
No matter--the lights are up and it's time to play.
Keeping the day
on call,
on coke,
on life support.
It's been so long since we pulled the plug
So long since the last black night...

12:08 AM.
We were there to gawk at the Perseids,
not the glitter in the velvet sky we found on exit 74.
Still, our silhouettes couldn't help but stand agape
against the unfamiliar stellar haze
more like flour than milk in the unsmogged prairie air.
It was everywhere--
--yet I couldn't recognize a single constellation.

Did they recognize me, those pinprick eyes
that saw me in the bushes peeing outside for the first time
(never mind the impatient family in the Chevy Tahoe
my pants streaked up my white thighs
blind in the headlights
cursed by my fellow skywatchers a few yards away)?
Even after the lightspots cleared,
the man, the queen, the ladle
were all lost in the crowd.

3:08 AM.
The clouds have drunk themselves to death in the still-radioactive sky.
The evening's prospects have staggered by and off
and so do I
to a disappointed bed.
I shiver in the chill of the traitor desert
that bakes girls into miniskirts
then sends them on their way.
No regrets worth the thought and yet
pride and perfection are hurling bar stools in my head.
I could have thrown myself at him a little harder,
I suppose.
My haggard dignity smells like failure.

Still,
Still,
Still.
One last techno thump.
One final catcall.
One hushed dewy step
And then another.

Steadfast Orion walks me home.